::: insidemyheart :::

I turned 19 today!
Happy Happy Birthday To Me!!

Thanks to all my friends for the birthday greetings, be it in Friendster, MSN or SMS.
Thank you so much, it is the thought that counts. =D

These are the greetings.
The purpose of writing all down is because I want to treasure all the greetings and wishes.

{31/7/2008 4:34pm}
From Sin Yen
Wish u happy 19^th birthday in advance.. :P                 

{01/08/2008 12:00am}
From Yao Jie:
Happy Birthday                                                                 

{01/08/2008 7:27am}
From Rui Ping
Cartoons with “Happy Birthday”                                   

{01/08/2008 8:22am}
From Susan
Happy 19^th Birthdae 2 U.. Enjoy tis wonderful n special dae wif ur love ones..

{01/08/2008 8:58am}
From Wang Shuang
Happy Birthday!

{01/08/2008 10:11am}
From Jie Ying
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! Have a wonderful day ahead and have fun!! May your dreams come true and all the best in your future endeavours!!! 

{01/08/2008 10:13am}
From Cannie
Happy B dae, happy bird day.

{01/08/2008 12:06pm}
From Mei Jing
Happy birthday with lots of Chinese words.

{01/08/2008 1:15pm}
From Alicia
Happy Birthday! I hope all your wishes will come true.   

{01/08/2008 3:35pm}
From Yu Ning
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

{01/08/2008 8:11pm}
From Jie Bin
Happy Birthday.

Last but not least, i want to thank my lovely parents and bro for the celebration.

IT'S A SUPER GREAT DAY!!
                                                                                    

I feel like crying.
I don't know why.
What I feel inside,
I can't describe.


                                                                                                      
                                                                                               It feel like everything is out to make me lose control

爱是什么？恨是什么？爱了；恨了；又为什么要痛呢？
现在的的时代大不如前了，以前什么不敢爱，不能爱.
如今已完全不同了
好多好多的人把爱情比喻成什么什么
但是现实真的可以那么美吗？
现实是残酷的
不管什么似乎都要用代价换得
想想又何必呢？
是的
爱是感觉
没有理由没有对、错
但是奇怪的人们为什么选择爱之后
又拼命的去和恨挂钩上呢？
辛苦的爱；又辛苦的恨
最后换成了永无休止的痛
感情呀！说不出所以的
了解它的人不多
陷入其中的却是无数…

STRESS is spreading around like a virus.

And it can only be slaughtered after mid-Aug.

Anyway thanks to J, who send me those advices for dealing stress.

So those who suffered from the virus, here are the antidotes.

1.  Tidy Up: Many people work to keep their home or office as clutter free as possible. The idea is that if your environment is organized your mind may follow. Even clearing your desk before you leave the office will work wonders. Our environments really are a reflection of our minds.

2.  Think Good Thoughts: It sounds almost cliché, but if you take a moment to mull over some of the good things going on in your life it can snap you out of dwelling on some of the more difficult things you could be going through. Your mind can only focus on one thing at a time, whether that thing is positive or negative is up to you.

3.  Get a Massage: So many of us forget to take care of ourselves, as we are so busy saving the world for others. Getting a massage relaxes your tense muscles. Studies have found that touch is also healing. So if you can’t afford a massage, reach out to a friend or loved one and ask for a hug.

4.   Laugh: You’ve heard it before; laughter is the best medicine. Call up a funny friend or pop a favorite comedy into your DVD player. Laughing has a way of putting so many things into perspective.

5.   Exercise: Join a gym with a friend or meet up with a group from your neighborhood for daily walks. Stretching exercises, such as yoga, can be just as rewarding. Exercising can also help combat some of the side effects of over eating.

6.   Go out with Friends: When you are having a stressful day it is time to rally for support, send an e-mail to your favorite group of friends and ask them to meet you somewhere for a dinner or ice cream. Talking out your problems with close friends is like being able to fall with a secure safety net.

This person G are really a nuisance.
Other than keep on sms-ing and calling, I think G really has nothing better to do.
I won’t even bother it. I will merely delete it and ignore the calls.

If I could, I rather changed my number.

You may think that why this G keep pestering me?

The reason is G falls in love with Y who is my good friend.

And “G” wants me to think of ways to woo Y.

I talked to Y. And Y was not interested.

Y told me not to bother G anymore. It’s a waste of time.
And I have better things to do rather than to become matchmaker.

我不想再期待什么。

因为失望的滋味很不好受。

I woke up early morning at around 7:30am to walk the Southern Ridges with my mum.
We started at the Telok Blangah Hill Park.
Then we came to Faber Walk. At there, you can see many interesting plants and fauna.
In the peak, you can see the views of the southern part of Singapore and the Southern Islands.
After Faber Walk, we reached Henderson Waves.
It is known as the highest pedestrian bridge in Singapore.
The purpose was to connect the two hills which are Mount Faber and Telok Blangah Hill.
The bridge has a unique wave-form made up of seven undulating curved steel “ribs” that alternately rise over and under its deck.
Next, we came to the Hilltop Walk.

And when we visit The Terrace Garden at the top of the park,
You can see a stunning 360-degree view of Singapore.
After that we walked a very long slope and reached the main road which is Telok Blangah Road.
And then we walked back home.
Overall the long walk was a really nice way of relaxing with nature and also enjoying the view of the nice scenery.

Today I accompanied my mum to my aunt’s house which is just opposite Holland village.

I heard from my mum that a distant relative from China is here to visit us.
I think is my grandma’s cousin.

I won’t even know who they are.

My aunt passed the stuffs that the relative bought for us. 
Those are the stuffs.
I find the carrier bags cute.

I think they are going to stay for a week.           
And now they are staying in the hotel.

So now everyone is taking turns to become ‘tour guide’.

It's Father's Day!
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!
To all the fathers in the world.

I bought my dad to choose his present today.
He bought a pair of leather shoes which I paid for it
After that we treat him for dinner.
Not forgetting making a card for him as usual.
And i know he loves it very much! 



                    Dad, I Could Never Thank You Enough for All That You Do for Me

A father is someone who
can never be thanked enough
or shown enough appreciation
for all that he does.
Yet I've spent so little time
doing those very things

My gratitude for you, Dad,
is always right inside my heart,
for I do know that I have
the world's best father.
I just don't seem to bring
my gratitude out into the open
often enough for you to see.
I guess I've always expected you to
just know the way I feel about you.

But maybe I've taken something
for granted --
maybe I assume you know
that every time
I say, "I love you, Dad,"
I'm also saying "Thank you"
from my heart.

I love this song.
It touched my heart.
Because it's actually how i felt.
 
               YouTube - Keith Urban - Tonight I Wanna Cry
 

Tonight I Wanna Cry
Artist:Keith Urban

{verse 1}
Alone in this house again tonight
I've got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

{chorus}
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

{verse 2}
Would it help if i turned the sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

{chorus}
Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

{chorus}
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with this pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

Yesterday I went out with Alicia & Yu Ning to Bugis.
The main purpose was to buy a present for mother’s day.
I wanted to buy a watch at the first place.
But I couldn’t find any suitable ones.
We decide to find a wallet instead.
We went in to the wallet shop. It’s so packed over there.
I bought a Pierre Cardin wallet which costs about 59 bucks after the discount.



After buying the present, we went to eat at Pasta Mania.
Alicia ordered the country baked pasta. Yu Ning & I ordered Ham & Sausage Baked Rice.
Then we went to Bugis Village. It’s extremely crowded.
Yu Ning bought a skirt for Michelle’s birthday.
Oh we met Alicia’s sister. She was with her groups of friends.
I can’t recognize her. But I felt like pinching her face. Hahaha.

 It’s really fun going out with them.
I was standing at the middle holding hands with them.
Yes. It’s so xing fu rite? Heh heh..
And we were laughing and laughing all the way.

It’s FRIDAY and I‘m loving it!!

As usual I have my Managing your tax at 1pm and ends at 5pm.

The lecture was a bit complicated. It’s regarding capital allowances.

After 5pm, rui ping and I went to the convention centre with Ms Lee and Benjamin.

We were helping out as student helpers in the FRESH! DANCE PARTY!

Anyway, the party starts at 6pm.

And we have the briefing and the refreshments.

Basically our job is to check their tickets and student cards and also tear the tickets for lucky draw.

Rui ping and I was team up with Tian Tian and another guy.

We were assigned to station near the staircase there.

And the job is super relaxed.

Our station was really fun.

We were crapping, eating and making new friends.

And our table is the only one that has so many foods.

Thanks to Tian Tian’s friend.

An Indian friend came to say hi to us when we were sitting at the staircase

I am glad to know him because he is super amazing.

He can talk fluently in Chinese as his mum was a Chinese.

He can even speak hokkien!

And he got a B3 for his Chinese!! *CLAP CLAP*

The funniest part is that he said Tamil is much harder than Chinese. HAHAHA!

Also he is super active!

He can be real high and he is extremely humorous.

After that we went in to the hall.

Some of them were dancing and it is really very happening.

I can see that everyone is trying to get high.

Then everything ends at around 10 plus.

All are so dead beat.

Alicia, Rui Ping & I are in deep trouble.

Hmm… Not that serious la.

It’s just that someone will keep calling us and we can’t even bother about it.

Imaging the person keep calling and calling even though no one answers.

Strong perseverance I think. But I want them to give up real soon.

Yesterday have my IS – Managing your taxes.

This was the first time that I wanted to faint in the lecture.

The lecturer taught us tax computation.

And it’s super complicated.

The part about personal reliefs can really made you headache.

And the funniest part is when the lecturer show us the solution,

Both people don’t need to pay any tax at all.

That’s because the personal reliefs can really deduct a lots provided you are married with children and your grandparent are living with you etc.

But overall I still like it and the lecturer is very very good.

Surprising to found out that wang shuang is in np too.

I was having lunch with her at canteen 3 on Wed.

I know her when I was studying higherCL at commonwealth sec.

Then she told me she discovered her note book and found my email address.
And this is how we started to contact each other. Haha.

I am SICK!!!

Suffering from fever, cough, sore throat and headache since Sat’s night.

I went to see a doctor on Sun’s morning.

After taking the medicine, slept until 3plus.

And now I took my medicine again, going to Zzz again.

My mom only had one eye. I hated her… she was such an embarrassment.
She cooked for students & teachers to support the family.

There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me.

I was so embarrassed.

How could she do this to me?
I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school one of my classmates said, ‘EEEE, your mom only has one eye!’

I wanted to bury myself.
I also wanted my mom to just disappear.
I confronted her that day and said, ‘ If you’re only goanna make me a laughing stock, why don’t you just die?’

My mom did not respond…
I didn’t even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because I was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings.

I walked out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.
So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married.
I bought a house of my own.
I had kids of my own.
I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts, Then one day, my
mother came to visit me.
She hadn’t seen me in years and she didn’t even meet her grandchildren.

When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited.
I screamed at her, ‘How dare you come to my house and scare my children!’
GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!’

And to this, my mother quietly answered, ‘Oh, I’m so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,’ and she disappeared out of sight.
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.

So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.
After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.

My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear.
They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

‘My dearest son,
I think of you all the time. I’m sorry that I came to your house and
scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I’m sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were
growing up.

You see……..when you were very little, you got into an accident, and
lost your eye.
As a mother, I couldn’t stand watching you
having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye.

With all my love to you,
Your mother.

Always tell someone that you love them because you never know what day will be their last, or your own.

Always seek to resolve your problems or disagreements with loved ones because if either of you should pass on before, the one who is left alive will have the rest of their life to ponder those unresolved feelings but will never find closure. And closure usually brings peace…